Within the garden of eden everything had its place from the grass to the serpent. Only when one is no longer within the garden can that be seen, though you must not bargain your way back, that isn’t how you got there in the first place.
You must question it all knowing full well that it still lies within you, as you were never there and yet you still experienced it. How can it be that we ache for a place none of us have ever been? yet somehow we know full well what it is to be in eden.
To not know what it is you are doing and to do it so well one must ask the child within themselves, not for explicit answers but perhaps implicit forgiveness instead.